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i think i have discovered the dark underbelly of christmas. i have spent the past few days in a depressed blur of working, trying to update webpage, drinking bottles of wine and trying to make myself feel better by imagining strange, weirdly detailed mary sue fantasies. (no, i'm not going ot write them down, they are for private use only thank you. i am not that much of an idiot). but it is a problem when you actually consider staying in bed all day. i have never done that in my life...not even when sick. of course, i am sick now, which might be part of this. or maybe that i don't have enough money to turn on the heater. or maybe just that i am out of good wine and might be forced to drink two buck chuck. (forced...yes i hear myself. i am not forced. blah blah). i am still in mood to shed blood and somehow think i might have to just scrap the latest chapter or just move it elsewhere. it doesn't *fit* it's fucking WRONG. i still really really want to make someone bleed too....it's time to see the richness of the red, as my friend Illyana might say. of course, if i move this chapter, then i have to change the next one, which is already partly written...goddamnit. i am going to blame it on rene's cranky ass.

hmmm, time for some good news...um....lawrence of arabia is on tv tomorrow...i'll be working but others can enjoy the slashy beauty of it. um...i watched la confidential again...though it made me sad, ed never gets bud...hmmm hey is that the ator who plays archie in that new battlestar gallatica silliness on the sci fi channel? that will make kittie happy.

well hell, i have no good news. that's....distressing.

i have eaten

and am somewhat better. (i swear the twinkie defense would actually work with me). anyway....i bring a strange, cutesy bit of christmas cheer.

It's a drabble for the anime Trigun. (Which actually reminds me of something I abandoned ages ago that also really needs to get finished).

http://www.evitable.org/trigun/vashmeryl/christmas.html


VASH!