hates it

[rispacooper]

Feeling, hm, sort of invisible today. And also just strange, in that way you do (or maybe only I do) when you're essentially wasting time on a writing project that feels oh so very important to you, but which you know is likely a piece of crap and no one else will get anyway? I mean, I have others things to be doing, and yet I'm struggling with this. Which only adds to invisible, general non-important feelings and yet you must go on.

And yeah.

CAN'T THIS JUST WRITE ITSELF? For the love of GOD, man.

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[rispacooper.livejournal.com]

Valentine's Day is the devil's holiday. I am convinced of this. It makes most people feel like crap, even those in relationships. All that pressure, all that expense... It's all a social pressure too. What's expected etc...

Do her friends buy her any? I used to buy them for my friends.

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

I've asked her that and it seems that it's something solely the perogative of couples. On the one hand, she harbors significant scorn for most of the people at her high school so the reality of NOT getting one is fine. It's just the non-reality part. Although she's not remotely interested in anyone there (a reason why she's desperate to go to college), it hammers home how lonely she is.

[rispacooper.livejournal.com]

I rewatched Pretty in Pink yesterday, and let me just say that movie is awesome, though it sucks that the changed-and totally fucked up--the ending. High school really doesn't have endings like that. But otherwise that movie is perfect for the screwed up, misfit, lonely and angry high school experience.

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

I had an idea for a blog on this subject, but it brought up such feelings of inadequacy on my own part that I just decided to bag it. I went to Holy Names for high school (so I didn't have that guy crap to deal with), but the sad part is that you can STILL be screwed up and a misfit and lonely and angry without the dude thing. My senior year was actually okay. Hooked up with some people that I'm still friends with, but the previous three years were nothing more than a special form of hell.

[rispacooper.livejournal.com]

Fucking high school.

We shall speak no more of the matter, unless it is in reference to sexy AU boys in high school stories, or yaoi manga. :P

Pr0n writing is getting awfully repetitive.

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

Agree and agree. I find myself FORCING the sex scenes because they need to be written but how many different ways can you write a blow job?

[rispacooper.livejournal.com]

Srsly.


Though it has helped me to realize why I felt the need to write this fic. These characters and their problems seem oddly familiar...

Are you writing SGA?

[(Anonymous)]

HAHAHAHAAHA!

I have to write my hd_worldcup story that I am currently writing. It is at 25,000 words and NOT finished.

I have to write my snarry_games story, which will be 20,000 minimum.

I have to finish my Your Move series, which will not be too hard, it's just a question of time.

I am committed up the wazoo. Plus I need to do promo for that real book! I'm writing every spare second. So um, no. Not yet. But I have ideas. Do you ever get the idea for a whole fic from just one line. This popped into my head last night.

"John Sheppard weighed 130 pounds when they stormed the fortress."

From there, I proceeded to spin, roughly, 20,000 words of SGA. That seems to be my word target these days. 20,000 words and certainly not less.

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

Ignore that bint up there who can't type.

HAHAHAHAAHA!

I have to write my hd_worldcup story that I am currently writing. It is at 25,000 words and NOT finished.

I have to write my snarry_games story, which will be 20,000 minimum.

I have to finish my Your Move series, which will not be too hard, it's just a question of time.

I am committed up the wazoo. Plus I need to do promo for that real book! I'm writing every spare second. So um, no. Not yet. But I have ideas. Do you ever get the idea for a whole fic from just one line. This popped into my head last night.

"John Sheppard weighed 130 pounds when they stormed the fortress."

From there, I proceeded to spin, roughly, 20,000 words of SGA. That seems to be my word target these days. 20,000 words and certainly not less.

[rispacooper.livejournal.com]

20, 000 words. Wowzah. I guess I shouldn't complain about my crappy epics.

Maybe you can use "Back Door Baby" as the title for a SGA fic?

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

HEE!

[paraxdisepink.livejournal.com]

Too bad. Yesterday I was just reminscing to my mom about how we made homecoming hairdos with Burger King crowns and blue and gold pom poms.

You are neither underappreciated genius nor unaware of you own suckage . . . I sadly simply posses inarticulatable (new word) genius . It's alway sso glorious in my head, damnit. If only instead of writing, we could get people to plug USB cables into our brains and see the fucking thing heh

[rispacooper.livejournal.com]

hmmm that sounds even more intimate than writing already is.

invasive even.

i'm lazy though so...