i hate my life

[rispacooper]

and yes i know the thing to do with that is to change your life, but trust me, don't tell me that, i know it already, shaddup. the thing is, the constantly sick/poor/anxiety ridden self has a really really hard time working up the energy to make dramatic life changes. of course, just when one is getting better something comes along to kick you in the ass...or teeth...whichever metaphor you prefer. broke is bad enough you understand, especially in cold weather when all you want to do is turn the heater on up. broke causes all sorts of worries that someone who tends to obsess in a freaky OCD kind of way really doesn't need. to add sick to it....i can only assume that in a previous life i was up to some seriously evil shit.

i need something really amazingly awesome to happen to me this week. and by that i mean just anything happening in my favor...no matter how small. just some bit of good news...a random compliment from a stranger...that would rock my sad little world. of course, last time i said that i got a speeding ticket and a sinus infection, so maybe it's best not to invite trouble.

*poor me*

meh