drunk yet again!

[rispacooper]

I am so triumphant, as though shootin' Jagee is difficult. I love the girl in my new icon btw. She's fantastically adorable. And brave brave brave.

I am making a drunken ass of myself yet again. (Rene, anyone?) I have eaten tuna, a banana, half a Three Musketeers bar and a lot of alcohol today.


Why am I writing? The equivalent of a drunken dial since most of my friends are asleep. Also I am pissed off at uptight people who take that vaguely morally superior tone while "praising" you so that there is no way to directly argue with them. In that, "your story is good if you like that sort of thing" kind of way. Bitches. I hate it. I hate that silence that means that in whatever community you are in, you have broken some law, crossed some line, and now you are Beyond the Pale. I can understand now why that was practically torture in itself in Regency England. (geeks out in midst of rant) It's just...it gets tiresome, to be Resident Pervert. It makes me feel like I need to take a whip to the lot of them, which doesn't help my case any, but whatever.

It isn't just me. A friend of mine writing in another fandom, just experimenting, in fiction no less, on the kinky pervy internet, trying out something in a story. And then condemned. Not for bad writing or anything. Not even openly for the perversion. Just...if you like that sort of thing.

Which means, yeah, you bitches fucking liked it and you know it and you wanna make *us* feel ashamed for it.

And it isn't even always kinky. And it isn't even always that bad. I have been ostracized for looking at het, I have been banned for joking about slash, I have had stories I've written greeted with silence (which is worse than anything) and yet seen the site visits and ratings for those stories go through the roof. I am possibly as open minded as you can get about sex (no children, no animals, and always always fully consensual). Doesn't mean I do all of it, even if I write about it. It's fucking fantasy. But that doesn't matter to people. All they see is that it was reasonably well written and made a point and that point made them uncomfortable.

I don't like MPREG. I don't get it. The same way a twincest fic would have to really be good to convince me. But I do my best not to make the authors feel like perverts. They shouldn't be ashamed. They' working out their issues. Nobody has to read their fic.

Haven't people fucking seen Quills?

and i'm not making sense anymore, so I'll stop.



The keyboard looks like a nice place to rest my head.

Comments

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

I think the anonymity of the net makes "brave" people out of cowards. I think it pointless to engage in dialogue with regarding what is perverted and what is not. The point of all this is freedom. Freedom to read or not to read. The freedom to write what you want to write. To me, the whole point of writing is that I can walk right into another world. And say it the way I want to say it.

I wrote a het fanfiction potter porn thing featuring Hermione and Draco. Nice piece. Am pretty proud of it. The point of it all is the choices we make during war. It got a lot of notice by a completely different set of people than usually read my fic, precisely because it was het. I am writing a similarly theme piece with Harry and Snape (a pairing that always raises eyebrows) and again, this is about choices one makes during war. And it will at some point, be slash. Mild slash most likely, but slash. Am curious about the reaction. Although I also find that there are distinct delineations between the people who read het fic and the people who read slash. Never the twain shall meet for some reason. Apparently, you and I are among the oddballs who read both because I just like well-written fic featuring sex scenes.

I agree with you about mpreg. It's just so fucking wrong that I could scream. I actually think it's homophobic (except in the case of a few authors). The idea of men doing men titillates them but also horrifies them so in essence they castrate one of the guys and make him in to a pseudo girl. I don't understand how one can read and write slash and yet not accept that, hey, some men just like doing men and only men and that's the way it is. However, I never comment on how wrong I think it is because it's NONE of my business what another person writes. None. Write away. I won't read it, but apparently a lot of people. You have an audience, but I will not be part of it. Don't send me an invitation to your party. I won't come. It's that simple. Have a good time without me.

In my mind, it's the writing. Who's fucking who is rather immaterial, although I do tend to read more slash because the really interesting writers are writing slash. But if they wrote het I'd read that, too.

I really don't get it. It's about the writing.

[rispacooper.livejournal.com]

on a side note, as i don't really read or watch harry potter, as such. (i had to read the first book for a class once and i watched the third movie for gary oldman)... what's the deal with snape anyway? i mean, he talks mean and looks all cheesy goth, but he saves people every chance he gets. he's like super hero in disguise. yet somehow, he is still villified for all time? i've read some harry/snape slash before and, aside from the age difference, its not that weird. its mostly that people turned snape into this sappy, sugary loverman the minute harry expresses an interest. it seems OOC, from what i can tell anyway.

and the turning of complex characters into fluffy love bunnies the moment they fall in love...don't even get me started on that. it's so...so...BARBARA CARTLAND.

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

I think the thing with Snape is that most readers identify with Harry SO much that they forget that the story is essentially written from the POV of a child. An interesting, growing, fascinating child, but a child none the less. They adopt Harry's hatred of Snape, and therefore any pairing with him is squick on a stick. I happen to think Snape is one of the more fascinating characters in HP-dom. One of the few characters who actually MAKES A CHOICE.

Plus, I want to fuck Alan Rickman so bad I am spreading my legs as I type this, so it all works for me.

[rispacooper.livejournal.com]

heh. that was vivid. alan rickman has held a special place in my pants..er...heart ever since prince of thieves. something about the way he orders "and bring a friend" just amused me (and pooky) utterly.