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"He said...I can smell your cunt..."

"I see. I myself, cannot."


Which, by the way, is a fantastic opening line when meeting new people. I thoroughly recommend it. Ah that movie is such an improvement on Thomas Harris' hideous books. His ideas are good but his writing style sucks ass.

Another good line, though not an opening one, is "What's the matter? Can't you speak? Or is your mouth all glued up with cunny juice?" (DDL....so fucking hot)

In any case, I am hyper tonight, M&M's and espresso and coke and still my heart isn't beating as terribly fast as it did on epiniphrin. I think I spelled that wrong. Don't ever take that stuff though,it gives you anxiety like a bitch.

Of course, another great thing to do with new people is let silence fall. I actually have no objections to silence whatsoever. I don't consider it rude, I just don't usually feel the pressure to speak (I say usually, because I work in retail and I am aware that I am supposed to fill the silence with customers. Heh. The structure of that sentence is wrong and now it sounds like I am filling silence *with* customers. Dork. Yes I know.)

Hmm. My space bar is sticky.

Heh. Shut up, Drea.

Silence makes other people talk though. They might think you're a bitch or a snob, but they keep on talking.My favorite is awkwardness about the local sports teams. As though I know or care. I also like when they babble, and suddenly, somehow, something horribly scary and conservative comes out. Oh I enjoy the silence then. Just letting the tension thicken so much it's as though their stupidity gets trapped in the air right in front of their face.

On the strange news front, scary dirty homeless guy from one of my jobs is apparently going to masturbate in a porno. Very unhot. I also have a new co worker at video hell, who is quick with the quotes and the silliness, and I think my brain has gotten lazy. He's giving me quite the mental workout. I could use the practice though.

Spent money on champs today. "Champ alright you, Pats?" "Lovely, Sweetie." "Shall we finish off the beluga or should we just have some smoked salmon and nibbly things?" "Whatever,Sweetie." "Allright we'll finish off the beluga."

oooh! Hannibal's about to crucify that guy and string up like a butterfly.

sugar high continues....

looking back on the rant of the previous day. (at least i think it was yesterday...internet and time do not seem connected somehow) about me being selfish. i think girls should be more selfish. and i am not saying greedy here, i am saying selfish. every relationship i have seen these days seems to involve women putting up with a lot of crap. and a lot of that is financial too. women seem to support lazy asshole men these days. men with no manners whatsoever.

whatsoever is such an awesome word. though not as sexy as prurient or prudence.

anyway. back to my single selfishness point, why the hell not? why am i supposed to give up my life to support some guy, or worse, some guy and his kids? say whatever you want, relationships haven't changed all that much. women still sacrifice the most in any couple, especially those with kids. i work hard for my money and my free time, and yes, there are people i like to spend money on, and time with, who even make me smile just thinking about them, but i shouldn't be considered either an ass or a failure if i don't have a man (or in cali and a few other states, a woman) or kids.


by putting up with a lot of crap, i don't mean learning to adjust, and coping with the bad times blah blah. i mean men (and women) who are immature wastes of space but sanctioned by our society to leech off their partners. just watch any sitcoms. fat, stupid, asshole, lazy husband and beautiful smart housewife, inexplicably married to said asshole and staying at home to raise his kids and listen to his crap. i mean supporting someone else's education...fuckers can get a job and do it themselves.

and of course, none of this mentions the real reason there is no dating on the RC front, because i have this obsessive, serial killer-esque obsession with manners and courtesy. i can't decide which i find more annoying, men i don't know *swearing* in presence (yes in my fucking presence) or the ever popular crude talk in front of strangers.

i am old fashioned or a dork. i don't know or i don't care. but you don't swear in front of people you don't know, in public, without at least acknowledging it. and i swear all the damn time...to my friends.

and i loves my sexual innuendoes. but there is clever, and there is stupid, andyou know what? playing master p for a girl is fucking stupid. (offensive and untalented).

and...then there's that whole male possesiveness thing. which in theory is hot in primal cavewoman mode, but in reality....the arm across the shoulder? get the FUCK off me!

heh heh. i have so many issues. which are all soo very very boring really.

but i have had sooo much sugar.